Obligatory First Year Stress

I fall and fall and fall. And they chase and chase and chase.

Homework is constant. Its a weekly cycle of shit to do. I know some future self of mine will look back with contempt at my complaining,

but shut up future me. This is all new right now. I've never had to so much to do. I've never had a job. I've never lived alone. I've never taken a single university class before this. Everything is new so I have a right to complain and be stressed and fail a lot and be kinda sad about failing and worry about not getting my major and imagine a future where my dishwashing job becomes my entire life and be very upset by that idea because dishwashing is very tiring and I'd probably die if I had to do it longer than my two hour shifts so unless I pass my courses I'll probably die, etc etc.

Heres a list of things I'm stressed might happen

• Doing so bad my average is too low for me to get computer science as a major

• Failing Math 120 (the honours course is really difficult who would have thought?)

• Forgetting to do assignmets and losing grades by accident. I'm so disorganized that this isn't even irrational. Its already happened.

• Damaging myself permanently somehow from my insane sleep schedule

• Missing something really important in all the emails I don't read from Piazza (the QandA forum the classes use)

• Not eating enough and dying

• Having to go back to my dorm and study or do homework. I take AS LONG AS I CAN to delay going back. Its soooO miserable.

• Getting covid and not being able do a test or attend a lab

• I'll end the year as a below average student

• The entire year will be like this and I'll feel miserable and tired and be a failure the entire time I'm at university